About Wind and Faith

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We have had some wild weather lately. Recently I lay awake listening to the rain pattering against the window and the wind gusting and howling in the trees nearby. It made for a disturbed night but the following morning, the weather was much calmer and the sky looked as though it had been washed bright by the storms of the night.

I ventured out for one of my favourite walking routes alongside the canal and as I strode along, I pondered on the feel of the wind on my face. In the distance I saw how a small gust of wind gently rippled the surface of the water. It danced and shimmered in the sunlight like something magical. It was a special, striking, heart-warming moment.

It’s a strange concept –you can feel the wind but you cannot see or grasp it.

You cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going.

You can see what it does but you cannot affect or influence its behaviour.

You can hear it softly rustling in the trees or loudly gusting.

You can be stung by its cold bite, or cooled by its gentle caress.

You can smell it in a drift of autumn wood smoke or summer flowers

You can resist it or accept it, but you cannot change it.

You can see it as a wonder, or maybe a curse.

You need to believe in it because its evidence is irrefutable.

If to analogise is a word, then the wind made me analogise – in two different ways.

Firstly, I liken the way the wind behaves to the passage of grief – and how it is in the beginning when you feel as though you spin helplessly in the vortex of a tornado, tumbled in a chaotic maelstrom of shock and loss. You are buffeted this way and that, tossed heedlessly by this monstrous unfamiliar blast. And then —- gradually, the storm begins to lose power. The strength of it recedes. Its violence becomes spent through hours, days, weeks of working through your tears and sorrow, until the havoc of storm force drops back to an acceptable level that your poor bruised heart, mind and soul can accommodate.

You reach a point where the howling tempest of the early days can be consigned to memory. You know that your face has lost the windswept, bewildered look of early loss and that you have come through the fierceness of the storm and out the other side. Where before all you could see was cloud and darkness, now you can appreciate the sunshine and rainbows again.

The other analogy I applied to the wind on my musing walk, is that it is akin to faith.

When you are locked into the despair of grief, you cry out for help and you do not know where that help is coming from, but you have faith that it will come and it will help you.

You cannot see faith, and you might believe you live without it, but as time passes, perhaps you recognise that faith is helping to give you strength to get through the difficulties in life.

Faith is trusting what you cannot see.                                                                                                 Faith is like taking a walk in the dark and believing you will not trip over unseen obstacles. Faith is reaching out and knowing you will not be ignored or knocked back.                       Faith is trusting in your own beliefs without constantly seeking logical evidence.

The wind and faith share the intangibility of a concept that has no beginning, and no end. How often do you do something that you describe as a leap of faith when you step forward into the unfamiliar, safe in the knowledge that you will be supported and encouraged? Sometimes you underestimate how much your faith and self-belief can uplift, nourish and sustain you.

You will notice that my musings are not affiliated to any particular faith: it is important to say this is because I believe we all follow an individual spiritual journey. It would be entirely wrong for me to try to impose my jigsaw of beliefs on anyone else. What matters is having faith in the veracity and ‘rightness’ of your own path, not proving that someone else is treading what you consider to be the ‘wrong’ path. In faith as in grief, there is no right or wrong way to do it.

But whatever your path, consider this:

Are you a reed to be blown this way and that, or are you an oak tree standing steadfast with your roots reaching down deep below the earth, providing you with the stability to stand equably, regardless of what assails you?

I think I used to be a reed. But I am getting closer to becoming an oak. How about you?

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4 thoughts on “About Wind and Faith

  1. Sheridan Voysey

    Some beautiful thoughts here, Andrea – and so beautifully phrased (as expected). “I think I used to be a reed. But I am getting closer to becoming an oak.” Beautiful.

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  2. Angela Dymoke

    Hello Andrea, I am a Bereavement Volunteer for Cruse in Gloucestershire and am also part of the training team for new volunteers. Yesterday we started a new course with 15 new people all giving their time to understand how to be a supportive person for someone who is bereaved…….

    It’s a very intense course and full of models, theories and stories…and heaps of practical interpersonal interactions……… After lunch I read out your Wind and Faith poem which is quite beautiful…….in a day where we give so much information out, where people are just finding their feet, it was important to remember the reality of each person’s grief and how it affects them – NOT just the model that might be useful to them one day when they sit alone in a room supporting someone like you (and me)…………the room fell silent and everyone felt the analogy of wind and grief very deeply…..

    THANK YOU for sharing such wonderful poetry….it makes a difference…..

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